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I've collected a list of my writings, some of them when I was angry. Many I believe to be wisdom, the rest are just things muddling my mind. Either way it should be interesting enough to cure your boredom for a while.
Words from the Heart
Thalia: Even though our twleve year legacy is over, we can't forget what has happened in those years. We've shared everything from underwear to toothbrushes, stories to bonds, contacts and saliva.. and I cherish every moment. I've spent a long time rebuilding my reasoning to myself as to why we were so close for so many years and the message was clear all along. We loved each other closer than family. Now that this legacy has come to an end, I can breathe easier with the memories of not a lost love, but the hope for a new begining.
Frank William.. You're the one person in eight years whos taught me how to love and showed me so many things that just didn't make sense to be before. I've had more mistakes since first meeting you.. the lessons ive learned have made me a better person. I am sorry I hurt you, i am sorry I lied to you.. and though it would make no difference in the world, I wish I had the chance to explain how everything snowballed to where it is now. You believe nothing I ever told you was true, which hurts.. as i only lied to you after you burned your bridge with me on Valentines day. I am sad that the person I fell in love with died... and if I killed him, then I am even more remorseful.. but you taught me how to love. You fixed me. You made me who I am now, someone who can give someone a real chance, someone who can give herself a chance at happiness. I will always love you, forever, more than anyone else in the world, and you will be missed. I learned from my past mistakes, and I never burned you out of my life. I relive my memories of you every day in my mind and they make me smile.
John: I've never burned you literally out of my life, but I certainly broke your heart in a million pieces. I didn't even think about it til much later. I'm so very sorry about everything... I still hold you in my heart and tell stories about you to all my friends.
Tyler Lee: You are the cancer that I broke, bruised, abused and left for dead all whilst blaming you for my trials. I regret so much that has happened, but I'm sure it has made both of us stronger. The hatrid I felt for you is gone and just the pleasantries of our early memories remain.
Mister Allen: I almost forgot you, isn't that ironic. When we were first together, I knew I had found the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Naive though it was, the feeling was there and it was true and real. No one had ever made me feel the way you did and no one has ever since. It is very difficult for me to remember just how the good times felt because of all the burning I did to my memories through pain and deciet.. but I'm working on it. I want to remember. I don't want to lose the parts of myself you helped create and build. You were amazing, and you loved me. You loved me so much, you stayed even when you didn't have to. I am who I am today because of you.
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